Instinctual subtype
Enneagram so9: the calm that never sits still
Every Little Leaguer gets a participation trophy, and so9 carries that word as its name, like a prize for showing up. Participation sounds like a decision: you wanted in and signed up. You don't remember signing up. The block association, the bowling league, the friends who float one river every August: you just ended up there. What self-forgetting does in such circles comes next; one code can't say whether it matches your case.
- leading
- second
- neglected
The code does not say which of the other two is second and which is neglected
Countertype: the passion turns back against itself
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What this instinct guards
- spI cover my own needs first
- soI read where I stand with people
- sxI go all in on one person
In a women's masters eight on the rowing canal, so9 sits in the five seat, mid-boat, with no view of the shore ahead or the coach's launch, only the back of the rower in front. There is no such thing as a stroke of one's own in there: the blade goes in on the same beat as the other seven or the boat stalls. The middle seat suits her for exactly that reason: a Nine is at ease only where their pace doesn't differ from anyone else's.
After a race the coach said the boat was running ragged and somebody would be moved to a four by summer. so9 didn't ask who. For a month she drove to the boathouse on Wednesdays, when it was empty, set the erg to the stroke seat's recorded rate, and rowed to it until her line on the screen lay flat on top of everyone else's. In June they moved somebody else.
Out of work for most of a year and counting every dollar, she lived on potatoes from the garden but paid her dues to the volunteer fire department in January like always. She drove to every call in her rusted pickup, and there was always a spare pair of gloves on the passenger seat in case someone on the crew forgot theirs.
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How it colors the passion
- The type's passion goes outward through the instinct
- Countertype: the passion turns back against itself
On Sundays so9 plays pickup soccer for whichever side is a player short, and when somebody heads home she switches over. By evening she knows the score and who turned an ankle, but not which team she scored her goal for. That is self-forgetting, which rests easiest with no side of its own, out on a field: everyone there has a team except her.
By day three at an all-inclusive in Cancun, so9 is part of a family reunion from Ohio she had never met: she's on their volleyball team, knows whose kid just got into Purdue, joins their conga line at the farewell dinner, and in October she flies to Toledo for the next reunion. Participation doesn't wait to be invited; a circle within reach is enough.
Staying put is how the other two Nines forget themselves, in the settled shape of the day or in someone else's rhythm; in so9 the social instinct turns that forgetting into motion. At forty-seven she got a commercial bus license so her Civil War reenactment unit could get to events without hiring a driver. Every June she pulls an old school bus out of the lot at four a.m., loaded with tents, muskets, and cook pots, drives twelve hours to Gettysburg, and sings the whole way with a busload of songs she didn't pick.
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How it differs from the other two
- This page
- Countertype
sp9, appetite
In any argument, both are the first to find where each side has a point. At a family birthday two cousins go at each other over the lake cabin. sp9 takes the dog out and walks the block for thirty minutes until things go quiet inside him. so9 stays at the table and by dessert has talked everyone into repainting the cabin's porch together on Saturday, with the two cousins sharing one can of paint. After a fight like that, what keeps you unsettled longer: the noise inside you, or the crack still running between the two of them?
sx9, fusion
Leaving first is beyond both of them: a party, a conversation, a dinner that has run long. On a three-day Amtrak ride to Seattle, so9 knows the whole car by day two, who is headed where and whose connection is in Chicago, and plays cards with a couple of soldiers in the lounge car. sx9 spends the whole trip talking with one seatmate, and after he gets off in Spokane, watches the window the rest of the way. When you feel truly at peace, is it more like a shared hum where you're one of many, or a quiet for two where nothing has to be decided by you?
04
Place in the stacking, and the neglected one
- so/sp/sx
- so
- sp
- sx
- so/sx/sp
- so
- sx
- sp
With this leading instinct, two stackings are possible
Her fiance wanted a courthouse wedding and a week at the beach. The wedding came to a hundred and forty guests: her high school class, the whole building, her dad's old coworkers, the neighbors from the lake. They had their first dance after eleven, with guests already heading out, and all day the two of them were alone for maybe ten minutes, in the car on the way from the church.
so9's whole wardrobe is T-shirts from shared events: the fun run, the food drive, the club anniversary, the reenactors' muster. The morning of her daughter's graduation she found she didn't own a top without a logo, and she picked one up at the mall on the way. That is self-preservation neglected under a leading social instinct: she dresses her own body in what was handed out to everyone.
When her oldest friend called at two in the morning after her husband left, so9's first move was to offer to get the girls together on Saturday. "I don't need the girls," the friend said, and didn't call again that night. With social leading and sexual neglected, every trouble gets one answer from her, the group one, and she recognizes a one-on-one conversation only after it is over.
05
What the test shows
Everything separated: subtype and the full stacking
Second and neglected close: subtype without the stacking
Leading and second close: two candidates
The test reports four things, and the instinct is the one we're least sure about. We'd rather tell you that than bury it. For about half the people who take it, the three instincts come out too close to call, and when that happens we show you the top two instead of picking one. Uneasy when idle, a day with every hour booked, things running the way they always have: so9 can sum themselves up like that without once mentioning the people all that routine is for. To the ear that is self-preservation talking, so the result may put sp first or show the two instincts nearly level. Participation hides behind the schedule here: the circle goes unnamed in the answers, and the jobs done for it sound like looking after one's own household.
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Questions
Why do I keep getting picked to run things when I don't like being in charge?
A group hands the wheel most easily to someone with no side of their own. You may hear everyone out and hold nothing against anybody, so a decision that comes from you goes down easier than one from somebody who wants to win. No commanding is required. Keeping the whole thing moving is enough, and that part may come to you on its own. So they pick you again, and the year after that too.
Why do votes bother me, even when I'm on the winning side?
A vote splits a circle into the people who won and the people left in the minority, and the seam shows for a long time. You're probably calmer when a decision takes shape by itself, out of a talk where everyone got heard a little. Even when your option wins, somebody ends up on the other side, and the thought that it all has to be stitched back together gets in the way of enjoying it.
Why do I feel empty after a big shared celebration?
While a shared project is running, forgetting yourself is easy: there's a current you can simply move along with everyone else. The party ends, people drive home, and you're left in a quiet with nothing to pick up. That emptiness doesn't mean something is wrong with you. What's missing is the next shared current, and the emptiness lasts exactly as long as there isn't one.
People say I'm the same with everybody. Is that a bad thing?
More of a feature. You may tune yourself to the overall tone of a group rather than to any one person, which is why you sound equally even with very different people. Someone who expects a tone reserved just for them can read that evenness as coolness, when all you're doing is keeping one shared pace for everyone.